Week 1 - Day 1: Psalm 139

As this is my first post, here is a little background on how I am journaling and what it is to be. First, I am using the STAR method of journaling (shown below). This is to help me get in the habit of journaling in an efficient and coherent manner. We'll see if it works. I may or may not continue using this method. Second, this is to be a journal of my thoughts, meditations, and insights of my Journey to becoming an Influencer. Note: If I had been on the ball about starting this when I was supposed to, I would have published this first post on Thursday, September 12, 2013.

STAR
Journaling Exercise/Influencers Journaling Template
#1 Scripture Read:
#2 Thoughts Conveyed: (This means to me:)
#3 Application Made: (This applies to my life in the following areas:)
#4 Response Given: (My prayer of response:)

#1 Scripture Read:
Psalm 139

#2 Thoughts conveyed: (This means to me:)

God knows me. God knows me better than I know myself. He knows my most intimate details and the truth about my public persona. 

#3 Application Made: (This applies to my life in the following areas:)

I cannot hide from Him. If I am abiding in Him, I should not WANT to hide from Him. I should bask in the comfort of His watchfulness; comforted by the knowledge that I am not alone and I am cared for. When there is part of me or my actions or inactions that I wish could be hidden from Him, it must be sin that shouldn't be part of me or my actions or inactions. 

God knows me, yes, but He also knows what is best for me, has a plan for me, and has a plan for His glory. David asked for God to destroy all his enemies. Did God destroy them all? No. Did God do what was best for David? Yes - including discipline and punishment when David strayed. Since I know David is considered a man after God's own heart (Acts 13:22), and I know that God did not spare David from discipline and punishment, I should expect the same treatment from God if I strive to be a man after God's own heart as well. Comforting and fearful.

#4 Response Given: (My prayer of response:)

Father, help me to want to be searched and tested by You as David asked in Psalm 139:23. Let me give my anxious thoughts to you, knowing that You know what is best for me, have plans for me, and have plans for Your glory. I want to be a part of the plan to bring You glory. Expose the parts of me I try to hide from You. Purge them from me as Your light drives away darkness. Replace them with a drive for the abiding life in Your Son, my Savior, Jesus. Amen.